Monday, November 4, 2024

How I Accidentally Quit Drinking

It was a cold Tuesday in January when Tom and I had a lovely salmon dinner with rice and hot borscht. A side of 1783 Bourbon seemed the perfect touch. We called it an early eve, and away he and Mocha drove into the dimming, almost full moon night.

The following day offered perfect hiking weather, though I could feel a bug was after me. It was too quick to have contracted a virus from Tom, so I surmised someone at church must have blown a germ in my direction. Nevertheless, some little guy was knocking at immunity’s door and my white blood cells were already suited up.

That night, the usual tell-tale signs of a cold hit for hours—the persistently dry sore throat that DayQuil and throat spray couldn’t ease. Thursday morning, I was exhausted and definitely ill, so I canceled my hair appointment and lunch date, and later, just to be safe, I canceled my Friday lunch date too. Good thing.

Seems when I’m sick, my typical hypervigilance flies out the window, and I simply focus on putting one foot ahead of the other or just sitting, staring at pages of someone else’s written words. So when the doorbell rang around 2:00 in the afternoon and a guy asked for Aspen, my daughter, I squinted to see if I could read his name badge, but my legal blindness really means I’m legally blind. I said she lived in another state, which is sort of true on a couple levels, so he ran diagonally across the street to his roaring muffler and Jeeped away. 
Retrospectively, I should’ve asked who and why, but didn’t.

My eyeballs ached, my scalp hurt, my hearing was amplified, my normally ultrasensitive mind and body had increased at least tenfold. Even my hair hurt. What was even more unusual, though, was a complete lack of desire for drinking alcohol. I didn’t even think about it, and eventually when the thought flew by, it made me feel sick.

So I took a covid test Friday and passed with flying colors. 

Sunday I skipped church but threw my carcass outside for an arduous mucky hike that made my usual four miles seem like eight. Ditto Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday, still feeling wounded—but dry. Even when Tom was having drinks, I had no desire.

But the real epiphany hit early Wednesday, January 31, 2024, before I got out of bed.

I saw myself as a young child, having been born prematurely, missing a layer of tissue on all parts of my body, which could be why I’ve always been so sensitive. Along with the physical deficiency came my ultrasensitivity to feeling others’ emotional, mental, and physical pain. To guard my soul from all the pain my parents inflicted on me within the womb and after birth, I developed a predisposition to mind-numbing pursuits so I wouldn’t feel as much suffering. 
(It didn't help that Mom used to pour brandy down my throat when I was four years old to help "soothe" my strep.)

But by feeling the misery of illness, I acquired the ability to handle life a little better. The healthy side being born from being unwell.

Saturday, August 12, 2023

Our BullSnake Is Dead

“Leigh!” my neighbor yelled over to me in his scratchy way. “I think I killed a rattlesnake.”

“We don’t have rattlesnakes here in our neighborhood,” I said and ran over to the killing field.

By this time, he had beheaded a still-squirming bull snake whose blood was poured onto his driveway, an individual who had been my protector for about five years—first in the front yard, then in the back, keeping mice consumed in my hens’ area. The ground squirrel also seemed to have found another home, perhaps in a snake’s belly. 



The neighbor's midtwenties-aged son was smiling greatly. I couldn’t believe it. Here lay my heroine, writhing in post-beheading pain.

“Oh, it’s okay,” the doctor said, “It’s head is off.”

Advice: Before you kill, be aware of who you are killing. Be judicious. A bull snake is not a viper, has a blunt snout, not a pointed viper nose, and uses Müllerian mimicry to feign his potency.

I’m devastated.

Wednesday, January 11, 2017

Jim and Andrea's Farewell Dinner

A lovely celebration at the Pinery at the Hill Friday, January 6, 2017, shepherded Jim and Andrea on to their next chapter.

Leigh Westin, Charlotte Mason, Jinny Cresap, Susie Conde, Mary Elizabeth Miller

Orchestrating the event were Mary Elizabeth Miller and Sharon Hare. Guests were welcomed by Fellowship Board* hosts and music from the String Quartet of the Chamber Orchestra of the Springs.

Following moderator Steve Bailey's brief opening remarks, the Fellowship Board performed a fun, lively, choreographed song—Hank Williams's "Jambalaya" with a new set of words that follow. (BTW, sorry about the technical problems with this post. Blogger is being bratty.)

Don Hare
Liz Aikin, Sharon Hare, Susie Conde, Charlotte Mason




















After dinner, saxophonist Brad Eastin, string bassist Angus Foster, drummer Stefan Flores, and keyboardist David Hudson played jazz and were accompanied by Neika Rosenberger and Lynn Hurst on a couple pieces.
David Hudson, Angus Foster, Neika Rosenberger, Brad Eastin
Dalton Connor, Chapmans
Dalton Connor presented Jim and Andrea with a 2018 vacation to Amsterdam and a cruise down the Danube, a gift lovingly, respectfully, and generously given through congregation donations.


Tom Hurley, Andrea Chapman, Cathy Howard (back), Phyllis Hurley

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Mary Elizabeth Miller 

To read a story about Jim, please click here.

* Broadmoor Community Church's Fellowship Board is Charlotte Mason, Mary Elizabeth Miller, Susie Conde, Liz Aikin, Jinny Cresap, Sharon Hare, Leigh Westin, Cathy Howard, Cyndi Lambrecht, and Martha Barton.

Martha Barton



Celebrate, Anticipate!
© 1952 “Jambalaya” music by Hank Williams. 
© 2016 words by Leigh Westin

Sunday morn, new day born, can’t wait to see ’em.
The way those people sing, it’s like RequEem.
Deeply breathe, feel relieved, the peace is flowin’.
The way we love this church will keep it growin’.

Chorus
Celebrate! Anticipate, this new adventure!
’Cause it’s sure to be a true spirit quencher.
Simple style, don a smile, we’ll be movin’
to the beat of their feet, we will be groovin’.

Flowers bought, vase or pot? The altar’s spiffy.
But when she sits in the pew, she thinks it’s iffy.
Shiftin’ ’round, thoughts abound, could it be better?
A masterpiece we see. That girl’s a real go-getter!

An open book, let’s take a look, the earth it offers
new explores to fill our hearts’ welcome coffers.
Heading down, Chiapas town, to learn the lingo.
Don’t want to accent our sy-lah-bles like a gringo.

Chorus
Celebrate! Anticipate, this new adventure!
’Cause it’s sure to be a true spirit quencher.
Simple style, don a smile, we’ll be movin’
to the beat of their feet, we will be groovin’.


Cherie Gorby, Charlotte Mason, Sharon Hare
Alison Moore, Sally Meadows, Bob Shanks

Anne Morgan, Gary Foote
Betty and Tom McCord


Libby and Ron Kinder
Cherre Torok and Judy Schleuter

Craig and Krista Casper

Dick Dailey, Dick and Gloria Foster

Don Wilfley, Florence Gwyn
Donna and Dave Bristow
Guy and Jinny Cresap
Eric and Ximena Leeper

Ed Dillon, Antoinette Trott, Alice Beaton
Harriet and Gary Kimes

Cherie and Chuck Gorby
Jane and George Sheffer

Joan Muir, Laura and Lou Mellini
Jim and Andrea Chapman

Jen and Scott Dorff
Kathleen and Dean Quaranta

June Williams, Oliver Nickels
Joan and Ron Robinson

Kathy and Ed Brady
Leslie and Doug Weddell
Lynn and Jerry Hurst
Lynz and Chris Bolton

Sharon and Guy Nanney
Mary Rebb, Sharon and Guy Nanney, Tom Rebb

Martin Willis and Chelley Gardner-Smith
Mary Ann Bomgardner and Bette Claytor
Diane Coon and Melissa, Wayne and Mary Mashburn

MarySue Wildman, Steve Bailey and Patty Lindau
Patty and Steve Jerman
Susie Conde and Al Schoffstall
Leigh Westin, Roger Christensen
Tom and Catherine Calvin



Tom and Catherine Calvin
Sue and Lester Fullbright
Sharol Metzler, Andrea Chapman

Rocky and Deb White
Ximena and Eric Leeper

Will and Linda Washburn
Wayne Moore and Dan Scherling
Wanda Reeves
Linda Washburn, Nancy Langstaff
Marcia and Harry Gautsche
Susan and Ray Coddington

Tom Briggs and Leigh Westin